Where does my anger come from..i always question with no answers...i dunt know how to curb it how to contain it...sometimes I wish I cud surgically remove it from within me.. Is it true that I make her feel bad abt herself? I guess my words do have that effect..but how..u have 2 remember jegan that u cant push a wall... All u can do is understand.. I feel so worn out at times cos of this.. Haiz..but this is what I want..this is e balance of life..i love her and am happy I have her ..i jus wish both of us had better ways of handling things.. Things will work out..
happiness
i feel like im at the foot of the mountain..in many ways.. i foresee my life just beginning..but dun get me wrong..im not complaining..im actually relishing it.. im looking forward to take on the challenges to make my mark and to show who i am.. i wanna be a great actor..i wanna be a wonderful boyfriend and i want to be a filial son.. i want it all..and here i stand looking up at this mountain..ready. ready to climb it.. every muscle in my body itching to start working and take me up there.. all this while i was lost.. walking around in wilderness... and then i stumble upon this mountain..and i realsie..this is what i've been looking for..and this is the beginning....
and the rest they say ..is history..
Been awhile.. so many things i've felt like writing but jus slipped my mind that i have a blog..hehh. .oh well.. i love the way things are now.. jus short of some requirements.. having money in my pocket wont be too bad.. hehh.. well i love what i do..thing is i need staple money man.. anyways..so many things piss me off these days.. im an angry man.. fuck that.. lets talk about what makes me happy.. GIRLFRIEND! hehh.. she makes me so happy ! so cute n funny and o so loving.. the est gf ever.. i owe her so much..i've never had anyone do so much for me.. one day when i make it big im gonna treat her like a princess.. and we'll live happily ever after.. =) love u baby.. ok now im hungry again..
maybe?
Last night or in fact morning.. i got a call from a private number.. 4am. i pick up and i hear this indian guys voice.. he knows me as jeg beers and he talked something about football. i was like yea yea. so who are you..and there he goes.. shooting his mouth off.. in the most colourful words trying to rile me up.. he fucked my entire family tree.. he mentioned i was a jobless useless lifeless guy and he claims to be my gf's fren. ah..perfect way to wake me up from sleep.. the thing was i wasnt even bothered to fight back cos.. it wud serve no purpose..i had no face on the guy..not even a name or number.. bummer.. oh well.. im bothered and i cant hide it.. it sucks.. if only these people had the balls to say this to my face.. well..i hurts..but fuck it..im gonna get a job soon..i know it sucks..gf working and im just bumming..yea im chasing the dream but thats never enough..u need money and u need a job to stand tall in this materialistic world. no one will put up with a jobless boyfriend for long.. i know i gotta go out there and get things done..
FUCK MY LIFE
I cant sleep..wow..whats new..and then suddenly i got inspired to write songs.. so i whip out the guitar.. and like magic. i lose all creativity..stuck.. nth!! argh! so now im on the com hoping to find something to give me inspiration.. man..i wish i cud get away...realy far..like set sail on a cruise..and just write music.. drink and be merry.. how wonderful wud tat be.. man i wanna do that so bad now...
I am sailing...
i will never forget our first date. it wasnt dating. it was friending. hahh..look where it has ended us. so cool we went for movie and ate at changing appetites and then we went to cedele for dessert and drinks. i was supposed to leave but cancelled so we stayed on and we went to swissotel had a another drink. then somehow we met fazli and eanti at chijmes and we all went to spice. ate sumore and went back.in the cab u were so sleepy but u didnt lean on me even though i offered. instead action lean on the window.. haha now always looking for me to lean on. i love u baby.
i dont friend u anymore..
ok.. so much has happened since i last wrote.. i felt i shud stop. but now im gonna write again. cos i wanna keep recording my memories..maybe i always stop when things go wrong and that way i don keep bad memories.. sweet.. lets keep the good and forget the bad. not a bad way to live huh.. well so much has happened i dunno where to start but lets see.. the bad. spent 2 nights in jail. spent 2 nights in hospital. quit my job and went into depression.
And the good. Pakiyoko has established itself as spore's elite. joining ESPZEN with stunning new jerseys and a new structure and gameplan. i'm chasing the dream of being famous and have developed a passion for acting and am already acting in a few productions.
Lastly and most importantly. i fell in love again. My heart thought it had seen it all. felt all the love and all the hurt. i didnt wanna get hurt again and the best part i though i wud never be able to fall in love again. But my my.. just see what life throws u. without the slightest of a hint. life gave me the most beautiful, most perfect angel. as much as i resented the notion of bein in a relationship again. as much as i repelled against falling. i did and the only reason is cos she was so perfect. so kind, so loving that i believed that it was alright to love again. that it was ok to let urself go. that it was only human to receive love and to love back.. i love u baby. thank you for picking me up and showing me it was ok.
by finding you, i found myself
pangkor was wonderful.... it was so blissful yet so fun.. it was probably the best holiday i've had..theres been so much going on..physically n in my head.. questions with no answers.. purpose with no direction n fears coupled with doubts..but they say the eye of the storm is where its the calmest n i guess thats where i am now.. im anchored there cos im so sure of one thing n one thing only..and that is i love her.. that keeps me sane n calm..i wont worry or fidget cos thats gonna throw me into chaos...im gonna stay here n love her..take care of her n make her happy..im no playboy..im no faggy..im sure what i want..im not afraid to say it..i want her..i wanna love her..i dont want drunken nites, partying, one night sex..i dont need emotionless relationships that feel safe cos u wont get hurt.. i wanna feel the intensity of loving her..the fear of losing her..the insecurity surrounding me..the fact that i dont noe wat tmr has in store for me.. all that comes with loving her n dats all i want.. i dont wanna be a jerk i don wanna be the husband most men turn out to be..i dont wanna be my dad...i've seen how mum suffered n i cud never provide the love or support i dad couldnt conjure..but i can be the man my mum deserved..i can be that man for my pr.. i can be the man who provides..who listens..who caresses her cheeks with love n stands by her wen she fears..to hold her wen she unsure n cry on me wen shes sad..to laugh with wen shes happy and to dance with wen she's free..i wanna be that man..im gonna be that man.. i'll make it right..i'll make it all worthwhile fighting for..i'll be the man..
Honour, Respect and Love
I love it when she smiles..I love it when she laughs..Love it when she burys her face in me..when she runs n jumps on me..love her belly dance..her cute facial expressions..love it when she calls me JJ in the cutest voice..love it when she carves my attention..when she plays catching..love it when she bites, when she digs her nails in me..love it when she looks in my eyes..kisses my lips..love it when she gets jealous when she wants me to herself..love it when she calls..when she meets me..love it when im with her..love it when im going to meet her..love every moment shes in my life..
i love her
I never knew u, never met u... but i saw u thru her eyes.. ur kind soul appreciated.. i saw how people missed u.. saw how many lives u touched.. my pr loved u n i know u did too.. im here now n she's in safe hands.. i have utmost respect for u.. i feel small in the presence of a gentleman who had such an impact on my love.. but now as u fly amongst angels..watching over..i will take care of her..i dno if i may ever match up..but i'll give my best shot..
Rest In Peace Brother
diwali is coming...it never means much to my family but im oni excited about the morning thosai n gettin meself some new clothes.. prob shop over the weekend... man i want 3500!!!!!! i want i want i want!!!! i want my 3500!! cos at my age if i earn 3500 n with a yearly increment of 10% i'd be jus fine.. so will my wallet..well things have been going great!!! our league has jus resumed.. me n vin are startin a band again..company gna have a match against hq n i gta tournament on sat..man so many things to look forward to..muahahaha but somehow the thing i look forward to the most is meeting my pyar.. we have been meeting for the whole week but it never seems enuf for me... so we're meeting in the morning n then maybe i gna meet vin for a session cos i keep postponing..and then its the weekend!!! wawee!!! oh ya im on leave from tmr till tues! Shibby!!
stop killing her!!
diwali is coming...it never means much to my family but im oni excited about the morning thosai n gettin meself some new clothes.. prob shop over the weekend... man i want 3500!!!!!! i want i want i want!!!! i want my 3500!! cos at my age if i earn 3500 n with a yearly increment of 10% i'd be jus fine.. so will my wallet..well things have been going great!!! our league has jus resumed.. me n vin are startin a band again..company gna have a match against hq n i gta tournament on sat..man so many things to look forward to..muahahaha but somehow the thing i look forward to the most is meeting my pyar.. we have been meeting for the whole week but it never seems enuf for me... so we're meeting in the morning n then maybe i gna meet vin for a session cos i keep postponing..and then its the weekend!!! wawee!!! oh ya im on leave from tmr till tues! Shibby!!
im so tired now..man i havent felt so tired in a long time..if u want money , love n a life guess dis is wad u get...i feel so overworked, tired lethargic.. i need some rest !!! badly!!! but otherwise things are good.. i had a great weekend with my pyar.. diwali is comin..not that i celebrate or care so much jus lookin forward to do some shopping and get some new clothes... long time no football, cant wait for our league to continue.. been awhile since i sat down for a drink with the guys.. funny how i feel so obliged to be faithful to pyar..i noe she doesnt demand it..but somehow in some faggy way thats wat i want..im done foolin around.. i jus wanna be hers..many guys(including myself) say that if a gal cheated on em they'd dump her..but its always ok if we do it..its psychological n inbuilt i guess..but this time around..im gonna be faithful n im gonna be a one woman man..i've had enough..cos pyar is jus so lovely..everything about her amuses me..i adore her n i somehow deep down inside know for sure she's special..like it was a known fact that when things settled down she was the one for me.. so here i am ..all for her..
its jus u n me..
He was crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
He wa crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
He was crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
He wa crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
He wa crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
He wa crying and she lent her shoulder, she was all he had at that time..a failed relationship, a traitor of a friend. he was filled with rage and anger consumed whatever emptiness in his heart.. but still she stood there holding his hand n dryin his tears.. she meant so much to him..yet he couldnt hold her closer, bcos of circumstances..she never asked for more..despite longing for her neither did he.. but soon good times turned to great times n all bitterness was lost..but still they were not each others'.. his longing for her turned to jealousy whenever she wasnt around him.. and so he decided that despite all refusal and denial..he wanted to be hers n her to be his..and so they were together..but still great times wen they were together coupled with arguments and angry words when apart.. but somehow..things are starting to fall in place..love has brought them together n it will keep them together..somehow or rather..they will always collide...
I'm Yours
Did u shit ur pants or wat muahahahahahahahahaha!!!! oh ya i had such a fun day yest... its so fun dat i had fun cos i was with someone fun who gave me so much fun dat i had fun havin fun!!!!! muahahahahahahaha!!! im so happy today woke up to pyars' voice!! im tired ah but i feel good! im happy!
doggy chocolate panties!!
Money makes the world go around...but at what cost? what do u pay with? more money? where do u get it? and if u do..will u ever be satisfied? everything we need or want we need money... whether u like money or not..u need it..whatever u like u need money...true? not true i say... what if i like long walks along the beach..what if like to hold my gals hand, kiss her on the forehead and tell her i love her, hold her so tight i get tired while she finds it hard to breathe, make love so much u fall asleep sweaty only to wake up smiling at each other, what if like pickin wild flowers to present her with, to see her smile n watch her eyes light up.. what if these were the things that made me happy...sounds dreamy n fictional...well they're true..and im the happiest man in the world..
Love can get u money but money will never get u love
Things are just great for me rite now.. im happy..im content, n im moving..but sometimes i cant help but wish things were better.. my personal life is great.. u noe..football, music, the most beautiful girlfriend.. all in my life.. but doin nothin with all this around jus leaves me stagnant... but for development i need money.. breakin even or being behind isnt the way i want my life to be...i want MONEY i like money.. so i have devised a plan..but i gotta invest $1000 in it... so im gonna become a guinea pig for medical companies to earn that money then wen i do im gonna go about my plan... im not tellin u wat my plan is cos then u'll jus rip me off ah u fraud conman!!! k so wen i do get the dough im gonna invest 1k n jus hope it works..n if it does im gna keep investin till i get fuckin rich!!! then i'll be movin forward..realising dreams n livin the life!!! so stay tuned to wat happens ...if i do get rich dont come lookin for me cos i'll be long gone!! anyways! i had such a great day..despite bein tired aft work i spent the whole day with pyar n now im at work again..hai... n meetin again tmr but its ok i never get bored of dat...wahai!!!
there's no more nothing in my future!
man..im such a faggy sometimes u noe..i get so sensitive.. its so niced to be love n feel loved back..n wen u feel ur not loved rite u feel miserable..haiz..maybe i shud smear sensodyne all over my body and mix some in warm water n drink it..n if dat doesn't work i can sue their company for lots of money then i can buy a mushroom by the cliff n jus sweep my pr off her feet n bring her there..then we can live happily ever after..i noe she gonna be missin her testicles if dat happens..so maybe i'll get a barnhouse n chuck them there n feed them sensodyne once a week so dat dey dnt mope around..haha idea!!!
For sensitive testicles..Use sensodyne...
well yest was another drunken nite...me vin penny n then later jess n kevin joined us.. yest damage was 13 jugs..fuckin kevin la hero come oni order 5 jugs.. penny n jess din drink much..but it was good fun.. met quite a few old frens..but most of all on my mind was pr.. man i miss her.. haven't seen her since las thurs..dats a whole week!!! woah!!! haha but nvm..tmr mrng i get to meet her n hug her the whole day!! wuhuu!!! oh ya at work.. im originally from shift d but temp with shift c ..shift d wants me back n shift c wants me to stay with them.. so my om gave me a choice..though i like my team i chose to stay with shift c.. its the same to me but i have a few good reasons to stay.. my shift d ppl abit pissed at me but its ok.. they undastand i guess.. k la nth much to say..
5more jugs please!!!
As i speak now im engulfed in this feeling of immense love for my pr.. i cant stop talkin about it to all my frens , i cant stop thinkin about her..i cant do anything wo her on my mind..i miss her so terribly n i jus wanna hold her in my arms... why do i love her so much? maybe cos she showed me so much love n concern wen i needed it..maybe cos i realised someone as beautiful as her deserved to be love n not hate love as a whole as i did after my break-up.. i wanna have the most head spinnin romance with her..i wanna wake up to the marvel of wat she is everyday..i wanna see her laugh, see her happy..make her happy.. dats all i want..cos i noe she makes me happy every moment im aware we're together..she brightens up my day..unlocks the most sensitive side of me..makes me laugh makes me cry.. makes me wanna better myself n live up to my potential.. she's really everything i never knew i wanted...the gal i love? My pr..hidayah..yaya.. my world now..
falling in love again n again with u..
im so in love..i cant believe it..i never tot i cud love dis way again..i remember sayin it countless times out loud n in my head..but i fell n maybe its me but more cos its her.. i love her more than i cud have imagined.. this song is for u my baby.. i love u so much..
I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad//
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad//
All I wanna do is grow old with you
Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches//
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks//
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
Ill miss you//
Ill kiss you//
Give you my coat when you are cold
Ill need you//
Ill feed you//
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink//
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink//
I could be the man who grows old with you//
I wanna grow old with you
mushroom house by the cliff...jus u n me...
ouh...my sayang is havin chicken pox n we cant meet for the 2 weeks..man..i miss her like crazy ready ah... all i been doin apart from work is playin my ps2..pro evo..man can u believe it..i like ang ku kueh n usualy a packet of 5 costs $1.30.. but i went to a diff shop cos the usual shop was out of it..so i ask how much n she quotes 3bucks!!! wtf 3 bucks!! i have the money n i want the kueh but im not gonna be ripped off!!!so i din buy..wtf fuck rite..wow sandhya so sweet she got for pr the friends collection.. sweet shit.. best friends i guess really exists..k la nth else ready...fuck u ang gu kueh!!!
ang gu kueh hahahaha
there was a time in my life when i was so lost n depressed n i tot i was losin it..as i slipped further into depression , drinkin almost everynite doin stupid tattoos n contemplatin becomin a superhero n losin my identity, there was one angel that looked over me n took care of it n eased my pain..my PR helped me n im forever grateful for it..she always sttod by wat she said n she always told me tthings wud get better n they truly have n so inspired by her at that time,, i wrote a song..here's how it goes
Every morning is a different day/ U'd see me smiling if dat was the case I remember when u told me everything wud be ok... Going to sleep alone is not the same/ Wakin up in the morning i feel the pain Time will heal and u'll get stronger , dats wat she said to me... At times times i think i'm going mad, cos memories of life make me so sad But memories shud remain memories i was told.. You know the sayin there are many fish/In the pond for u to pick But how do i pick the one that got away But its alright, n its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday.. Yeah its alright and its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday A better man someday.. Every morning is a different day/ U see me smiling cos dat is the case I remember when u told me everything wud be ok... Going to sleep alone is not the same/But wakin up in the morning i feel no pain Time will heal and u'll get stronger , dats wat u said to me... At times i thought dat i'd be going mad, cos memories of life made me so sad But memories shud remain memories i know dat now Trust me when i say it'd be ok/Everbody's got their price to pay Time is up life is too short to cry it all away But its alright, n its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday.. Yeah its alright and its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday A better man someday.. Trust me when i say it'd be ok/Everbody's got their price to pay Time is up life is too short to cry it all away Every morning is a different day/ U see me smiling cos dat is the case I remember when u told me everything wud be ok But its alright, n its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday.. Yeah its alright and its ok..Maybe i'll be a better man someday A better man someday.. And its alright, yeah its ok/ It'll be much better if we make it through today.. And its alright, yeah its ok/ It'll be much better if we make it through today.. And its alright, yeah its ok/ It'll be much better if we make it through today.. And its alright, yeah its ok/ It'll be much better if we make it through today..
im noot gonna say why or what happen jus know dat i have the coolest mum in the world... shes understandin..cicil..progressive and fucken beyond her time.. im so glad i have her as my mum...i love u mum.. thank u for everything
y do u fear when im here
My fuckin sister is an asshole
My fuckin sister is an asshole
The dawn is breaking A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah/
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again/
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide/
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind/
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide/
Don't stop here
I lost my place
Im close behind/
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide/
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide/
yest was such a memorable day...aft night shift i met my pyar!!! we went for breakfast at mac then we rented bedazzled and watched it..aft dat we jus lay down in each others arms n talked.. had lunch before we slept..the nicest part was wen we cancelled our plans to go out with our own frens so dat we cud be togetha..wen we woke up we had so much funn..watched man utd lose to liverpool..argh but since ur a pool fan im gna be happy for u sayang.. then we went to our swing wher we played footie n i lost 4-2..haha i give u chance okay!! and then we lit candles and jus lay there lookin at the full moon and stars.. every kiss is magical and every time u tell me u love me i cant resist kissin u to feel the magic.. then we went back super shack..went mac brought back ate n slept n woke up at 2am.. she was so cute wen she got tired..cudnt even talk properly.. i love u pr! then i slept bout 230am got up at 6 n went to work..im so tired but it was all well worth it.. my whole day with my pr.. i love u so much..never tot i cud love like this again..i jus hope we dont hurt each other.. jus wanna love u this way forever!!
and i don't know why ..i can't keep my eyes off of u..
GANGBANG BRUDDERS:- MANDEK - SINGH MEMBERS NAZRUL , J.FURNEY AND ME!!!
One pussy, 4 Cocks
things have seem to have taken a new turn...as much as i didnt want to fall in love again..i inevitably have..i've enjoyed singlehood for about 2 months now n i realise as much as i love guys night out and enjoyin life as a single.. im not the type of person to flirt and be some romeo playboy.. i like having the comfort of someone special..maybe 5 years with her made me dis way..maybe its my genes maybe im jus boring but either way it has happen again.. who knows this line " why does it feel the same to fall in love or break it off " its true.. it feels great to be in love but its miserable... wen i miss u n i question if i am the one for u... but nevertheless im embarking on this journey fuckin lost n unsure..the only thing i noe is wen we're togetha its dam fun n laughter... so lets see how it goes...
tangled up in u
its been so long but i bet no one reads this anyway im surprised i even remember my password but its so simple how can i go wrong... so much has happened..my once perfect life is incomplete now..im lookin to fill a gap of myself that i once gave away..u noe u get so independent at a certain stage of ur life that ur a fulfilled entity by urself...wateva u do u just need urself then some1 comes along and u love..u love selflessly..giving that person part of u n takin part of them then when everything falls apart u've lost a part of urself..its gone with ur love n then u go searchin..for urself..how ironic is dat? well dats wat im doin now... lookin for myself again..i spent 5 years of my life with the most beautiful creature i have ever seen walk tis earth.. it hurts to part but some how i feel it has to be done.. trust is important..but the transition is torturous.. torture wen i look at photos..and eat food we shared n go to places we hung out at n listen to songs we sang n phrases we said..we were one and now im half.. things really spiralled down in a matter of days.. wat a feelin... anger, hurt, sorrow, freedom and imprisonment.. i am moving on albeit on a treadmill at the moment..but i will get off it soon..there are new ppl in my life but u noe u cant stop comparing or reminiscing.. but all is good and im cool.. i friggin went to school on my own on sbs bus everidae from pri 1 so i am independent.. but sometimes its not dat u wanna be loved..u wanna love some1 n show them how much u care.. i wanna share my love.. my only advice if u really are so sorry as to read this is never trust guys..be it ur bestfriend brother or father..never trust..trust me when i say this..but then again..im a guy...
fuck u afro head.fuck u jealousy
all those "emo" ppl out there reading this fuck u..suddenly ther is this dumb music called emo then thers bands callin themselves emo then ther r all u maggots callin urselves emo fans than emokids and poof its now a concept???? fuck u! how stoopid is dat..its fuckin irritatin whining and whining? crying and black eyeliners pl go n join depressions anonymous u uselee pieces of cryin craps...everyone gets sad once in awhile bt emo is jus wrong..and the worst part of it all is the use of the word punk wit u..i mean ur emo punks got nth to do with emo..we are hardcore and street not sum emoshits so next tym b4 u go arnd tellin sum1 u r a emopunk think a gain..jus tell him ur a whining boy hu wears nail polish and eyeliner
mommy! he took my lolly im gonna be emo from now on...
all those "emo" ppl out there reading this fuck u..suddenly ther is this dumb music called emo then thers bands callin themselves emo then ther r all u maggots callin urselves emo fans than emokids and poof its now a concept???? fuck u! how stoopid is dat..its fuckin irritatin whining and whining? crying and black eyeliners pl go n join depressions anonymous u uselee pieces of cryin craps...everyone gets sad once in awhile bt emo is jus wrong..and the worst part of it all is the use of the word punk wit u..i mean ur emo punks got nth to do with emo..we are hardcore and street not sum emoshits so next tym b4 u go arnd tellin sum1 u r a emopunk think a gain..jus tell him ur a whining boy hu wears nail polish and eyeliner
love u!
haiz here i am in the office..been here from yest mrng 8..on duty cos..for those who dunno wat dat is its company orderly sergeant sllepy sak..handing over duty at 8 then going for paki game..hope to extend our winning streak and hope o ge on he scoresheet again.. later at 6 got jamming sumore..hm.been a busy weekend.. niwae imes have ben the same..everyday at camp..now the main body have gone for evaluation in taiwan so we're the stay back force..yey valentines day my sgt major give nites off!!! get to spend wit my baby.. lol!!! hm..mighty sleepy now..cant wait to get sum rest tonite bk in at 11 then tmro i duty comander..but nth much.. jus 5km run and signals lesson.. oh i believe in miracles.. yeah hey gabba gabba hey!! love u u munchkin cuteskin..sayang.. wanna get married to you cant wait.. *muacks*
punkrock love
HO HO HO....!MERRY CHRISTMAS!HO HO HO....!haha..love u baby..nothing to do now at my uncle's plc so write blog.mis u so much.got lotsa work to do this term break.got submission next year 3rd jan.gota werk hard.if all werk finish then i can rilek n spend the break with u.hopefully im discipline enuf.hahaha..hmmmm...hey baby!we'r moving on to 2006!thanks for everything for the past 2 years!ur the best i eva had!muacks!
kinjeg...
man..my man jus came in today.. wa 50 of them..ok ah got some dip holders.. some geeks, ah bengs, even 2 china man.. wow..some attitude..got 3 indian guys osos..i din fuck em ah jus tekan abit oni..wa my throat abit pain..had to shout alot..wa.. quite tiring.. now they book out.. later they bookin in with their stuff.. well my weekend was great! had some lovely time with her.. had some good food and some good rest..did some cleaning in the house as well... niwae nth much to do now but write worthless stuff here.. ok la nth readi..love u mum, love u kin!! yeah cant wait for our wedding!!! cya
semula
yeah gonna book out today...finally after the whole week in camp doin nothing.. well my man will be coming in for advanced infantry trainin next mon..gonna have to train them for 3 mthsbefore moving on to the main body...wanna chill dis wknd..wa cant wait to book out..after lunch... k la.. blog again soon.. nothin to do now..missin kin so much.. cantwait to mt my wife.. love u sayang... have to be garang with the man wen they come in so that the standard is set..well after that im the welfare sgt jus like i am now with the current batch of men...
book in sun 2300hrs
we have imagine how our wedding gona be like if we hold a gig at our wedding.instead of just having guests to witness our marriage,we perform for the guest and get them to mosh n body surf at our wedding.it's so dam cool sia.and then after that we'd spent our first night at some posh hotel by the beach and romance the night away with michael bolton music and some expensive wine in a nice jacuzzi hot tub...oouuhh....and the next morning we have breakfast in bed and crash the hotel room right after that..hahaha..i'm gonna steal the bathroom mirror and jeg's gonna steal the hotel's soap.we're gonna messed up the whole room,turn it upside down..and instead of checking out,we gonna run away n leave the hotel without paying..i'll escape by skating and jeg will escape by skateboarding..hahahaha..oh yah not to forget,everything must be captured in the videocam...and this gona be the most memorable wedding ever..jackass and fun.....but hey!!....is this even possible?..mmmm....but no matter wad we gona get married rite?
huwaaaaa....guess im a gonna star blogging again jus cos im bored..not gonna refresh u onwat i've been doin cos its gonna take a very long story..well im in ns now...completed bmt and 6 mths of sispec n finally posted out as a sgt at atec pasir laba camp..instructor for now.. so now in camp..nothin to do..niwae life is good...still life revolves around kin mum n army now...slack on weekends..once in awhile jam with hairul and wan..playinshit stuff...punk punkrock and some other shit..fun ah..love playin...saw fad and may perform las wknd..good punk ass shit..go watch the descent is fuckin good sick fuck shit... well long tym nvr contactmany peeplers... eddy same camp as me.. ok..much more freedom now... ok la dats about it will update soon probably..wa forget how to spell so many words... . k la dats all chiaoz...
peepy's back tell a friend
fuck man this thing has been botherin me for awhile...i emo ah..no no i'm not whining bout my probs..wats been botherin me is the farkin scary terrorist..did u guys see the beheadin videos..my..they were sick fuckin sick...cheebye..wanet to puke..and u noe wats scarier than those videos..being kidnaped by those maniacs..fuck em man.i'm terrified of bein kidnapped..it jus keeps crossin my mind and i can imagine the fear of awaitin ur beheadin..man i'd rather try to escape and get shot than beheaded..fuck its scary..why cant all the nations withdraw their troops and then the freakin terrorists will leave us alone..its scary man..fuck..jus make peace..i dunnoe how but sumhow it has to be possible...fuck this is seriously disturbin.
don harm us we're innocent
okay i think its about time all of u found out the truth bout me.....heheh..y my name is peepycmf...
it all started in sec4 or sec5 not to sure..me and arvind were in the skool toilet and arvind was at the urinal pissin while i was changin into my pants..and since our dear arvind couldnt piss he turned around and at that very moment my dick peeped out of my boxers and arvind saw it..and he died..k so now u have it..fuck u
and heres the song: so go ahead and talk shit about my peeping little dicky..and the c.m.f well it jus stands for CrazyMuthaFarker aiight k then nothin to say..bubye fuckers
go ahead and talk.....
hokay la jus move things arnd abit...las nite kn stayed over and today morning i sent her to skool nand now am at nyp lepak with wan n matman...hmmm..long time no go skool wanna withdraw officially today..boring ah..fucking asshole..y u stiilreadin this fuck u ah..idiot! fuck off!! go do sumtin else? aiyo....k dat jus means i got notin to say ready..see u all tmro at baybeats fuckers!!
there's fuckers everywhere, there's fuckers everywhere!!!!
ha so lang no blog..bored so jus do it la............
at werk now no customer so no money so far..for those hu din noe im now werkin at ministry of law thanks to arvind cos he skl start ready so i take over him.. its a gd job..good money rilek..get to blog play msn n friendster at the same tym and oso take tabs and stuff for free wah sllepy ah..las nyt ton arvin hse..afterwerk me vijay vin and eddy went to pizza hut then went back to vin place abe da malas..tak alik....whuahahahahaha!!!!! hm..i love sikin..
boring ah!!1 fuck u ah y u readin this??? i write nonsense osos u bother to cum my blog and read..u no life ar? fucker!!fuck off asshole.........
and don come back
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wa peh long time no blog.. now at werk wit vin..takin over him soon...for sum much needed ash..thanks vin..jus say hi oni and to let u noe im still alive
amack!
finally i have some time to update..been super busy werkin these past few weeks..now ay my mums office..got alot of things to take care of.. gotta apply for poly as i have pulled out of nyp ad gotta defer ns and stuff plus werk and the disbanded movement means no band at the moment and i wana form one asap..i still wana play antiflag and social political punkrock but i need the ppl with the same mindset..osos wanna make a band that plays peaceful music..like indie or reggae.reggae bit too hard at the moment so jus stick to indie or slow rock.. well things in my life have been goin fine..earning my own dough and missin kin so damn much cos i freakin werk 12 hrs a day ..dn get to mt her except on wknds and todae osos dn get to meet..oni tmro go skafest 2getha.. been thinkin bt the guys lately..maybe i was a bit unfair to them.. especially vin and ed..but things have happened and it can be reversed..they were my frens since 15 and i cant ignore that or throw it away..true..its my softspot..well me and wan as same as ever..meet up go out and sms..but dunoe how he been..how r u ah? k la dats it for now..tasha! i miss u! wher are u? give me a kol.. kin!!!! i love u my dearest wife! i love u so much! ~Mmmmmuuuuaaaacccckkkksssss~
i'm a dick, i'm addicted to you
wa dunoe wat to update osos..since valentines day jus been slackin.. sat had tournament and we lost on penalties so not so bad..sorry ah aide i took the frekick but at least close..jus over the bar dude.. hm..then wsun kin came over and same ol thing ah we spend the whole day cuddling..then this whole week been fetchin her from skool cos i jus cant bear being apart from her cos i love her so much..today cant but maybe later she come down for our sssion..at 8 at bb.. well me start werk dis mon and i gonna be werkin 4 weekdays and gonna be busy man..walau.sat will be stay home day and sun will be valentines day so me only have i wkday for anything else in my life..yeh at least earn money can take license then can add tattoo!! bes ah! k ah nothin left to say ah..kin i love u!
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watsup dogg... chllin yo..yeah... fuckin fuckin fucker! fuckin fucken fucker! fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck....dunnoe wat to write so fuck fuck fuck fuck....fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...kimak psycho sak dini! one love..for ur mothers breast one love for ur fathers ass.. mus rhyme... oh yeah watsup dogg..that was absolutely horrendous.. nigga wa? nigga who? nigga watsup yo? hiphop beats in the house....! walau aku da tak betul! k la serious la..yest go fetch kin from skl then walk home and found out that egypt is actually at telok blangah..for those who neber been to tb go check it out..k its as cute as wiiliam hungs little bootie shakin..niwae watsup yo? aiight?! YEAH!!!!! my mum like kin and i ask no more than that.. i love em both so much and finally my mum sees wat isee in her..shes a good person,nice gal and i love her more tha anything and now my mum does too and that jus makes me the happiest man in the world... woho! so all u fucken dissers out ther hu complain bt my whining u van shove urs up ur ass cos peepycmf is the back as peepyyfm!!! k bye!
bye dear diary...
walau! been a bes freakin wkend! lets recall.. fri went skl for open hse help out live audio then met kin and we both went town to buy present for mum..sub n qila came along..then bot for mum her fav cheesecake from marriot hotel..$60 sak! wa peh then ask kin bring it home..then on valentines day she brought it over and we cut cake eat..at least mum happy..then mum went out with her bf..so me and kin at hm watch tv..then walau super passionate sey dat day..diunnoe why ah but bes ah..we so hyper energy..then sun she came over again and we slept for awhile b4 meeting wirwan, sub n qila..lepak then went back late as usual..oh ya then in fri went town to but the cake saw eddy vin n may..jus say hi then mind my own business..guess they still the same slackers..for now i have changed..i admit but only after all this has happened..my life revolve arnd kin, home, mum and my pets...then mon she came over again..bes sey..had lunch then had a nap then had tea and cheesecake for teatime and then ehem! and then sent her home..still not enough of u ah yang..u so special to me..well then today came skool lepak with aide wan n sub..later meetin kin go home slp sumore then at nite got session..hm..maybe startin a new band with wan may sub.. bes ah nak main lagu rilek! k ah chiaoz~ no more to say then happy valentines day! love u!
will u be mine....? till the end or time.....
walau! been stayin home this week..mon went jam for 2hrs..not so bad but not up to standard yet gotta jam more.. hmm..been saving to but mum the bag but i thinkin cos she kinda short on cash and instead of buying her the bag if i gave her the money it be more helpful to her so im still considering buying her the bag or to jus nuy cheesecake and give her the rest of the money.. keep thinkin of sunday..spent the whole day with kin and since then havent met her,, oni meeting her tmro.. sat dunnoe wat plan yet.. now at skl got open hse and so many uniforms everywhere..scary! so i danced in front of the stage wen the malay dance goin on and a sec sch gal laf at me..walau tak btol ah jeg! kin....I LOVE YOU!!! hmm..thats bout it ah..hey u yeah u! readin my blog now...thanks!
Uniforms!!!!Arghh!!!!!
well yest me and kin celebrated "Valentines day" haik! early ah cos o the day itself bof of us busy... she came over and we went out for breakfast and went home and slept..then lepak and~ehem~ and then went for dinner..came back she did homewerk while i played guitar and then watched truman show jap b4 sendin her home,, bes! on sat she came wuf me watch soccer match..i and wan played for sub and aide's team..got to make many frens..his teamate gerek sak! all into music osos! funny guy at dan and din so blur cute ah he.. so we won 6-2 from being 2-1 down at half time.. i oni assist one goal..played in the right,,, dan finished my cross with a beauty..power dok! k ah guess dats it.. wanna link more peeplers! chao! going jamlater at yishun at 730..sape nak join? hik! msg me bubye..
cant stop thinkin of u and the things we did
welo! well gotta rush cos gotta go live audio meetin in awhile..hm.. bt the abortion stuff..if u make the baby then u dn abort it u are makin it suffer more..cos it wont be able to have a good life lookin at situations we all are in..and if u dn wanna kill any babies then u cant ever ejaculate outside cos ure killin millions of babies to be..so u must ejaculate inside the vagina giving all an equal chance of survival so its ur choice..save babies or be practical and wise..
pancut pancut everywhere!
haha! such good dogs i have..i jus say diss and off u go.. so obedient and not noi dat u ososo diss my frens such an obedient bitch! anyway i wanna surprise peeplers i not so stupid to write down knowin she'd read u idiot of cos i wrote noeing she had no access to read it..my god ur the embodiement of ignorance dude..........!!
Sit, Roll over, Piss all over urself, Die, Good boy!!
i wanna open a discussion cos my tagboard long time no drama from losers with loads of comments..we had this discussion once and i din say anything bt bn thinkin bt it so lets talk..the subject:BABY! lets say u make ur gf pregnant and like we're all below 20..hvnt go ns..still in sch..still livin with parents..wad do u do? well my good fren wan said it would be a sin to kill or abort the baby as ur takin a live and not givin it a chance of life.. true and very compassionate..in a practical point of view i wld have to disagree with wan..if u kip dat baby i feel ur doin more sin to the baby cos by bringin in that baby into this world u are takin on the responsibility of takin care of it and at the stage all of us are i don think any of us are secure or ready enough to look after our own kid..bein unable to bring the kid up the way it shld be i a sin itself..and ur adding burden to urself..so which is the way to go? moral and commpassionats or practical and compassionate..matbe it shld be a mutual decision by the parents..i dunooe maybe we'll noe if it happens to us..
ready, get set, diss me!
haik! me nothig to do so blog la rite wat else..hm.. lets see..me have saved up 60bucks so far another 40 and ican buy my mum dat bag she really wanted..she noei savin then confident say i savin to buy kin a present for valetines day..haha wait till valentins day wen i give u the bag..fuck sak save money dis way..everidae dn eat outside jus scavenge wat i can at hm then if go out starve..im starvin rite now..came out of home with 1.70..mon goin mum office for he job then gonna be werkin 4 days a wk so me gonna be busy..so the las day i can jam is sat..so guys we gotta jam sat die die or else dunnoe wen i free..sun i busy..sorry..valentines day ah sun..k la thats all bout me readi..blog bout other stuff ah.. k go! thanks wan and wir 4 ur frenship..thanks kin for ur love..thanks mum..for everything..thank u 4 readin my whining..
coldplay rilek!!
hmmm...cum bt donno wat to write..sayang!!can't wait to meet u again..dis sun our valentins day ryt??Can't wait to spend de day wif u..hmmm...after next week both of us gonna be busy..sure gonna miss u loads n loads...hmm..now ready missin u..jus can't stop thinkin of u...oh ya todae oso nisa's last day.i ready do the gift but stupid me nvr bring to school...haiz....think jus snailmail her dat gift ah,she still be in singapore next week..wadelse eh??oh yah william burn my cd readi...duno whether got all the songs that i wan anot...later then listen ah...kla i nothing to wryt readi.LOVE U JEG..ur the best person i've ever noe...
skank raggae
Jeg
well..heya pics of our performance in the 23rd gig are in so go check it out ya..thers a link..
well i've made up my mind..i've had sum tym to claer my head and i think im able to end this.. firstly i stand by my desicion to not have ant brudders anymore..this is due to the fact of not wantin anymore unwanted trouble..i still regard u gys as frens. i will still play in the movement..the movement is like a baby to us all...we gave birth to it and i cant abandon my baby.. so i will continue to play.. i gues thats sums it up rite.. well pass few days i've been stayin home to save money cos i really wanna but my mum dat bag..it cost 100bucks! damn niwae nothin much to sae..miss u kin..love u..oh ya in the end sun we ended up at east coast and spent the whole day lyin on the beach..playin guitar..sleepin..watchin stupid 3sec glory skimmers.. k ah i malas wanna type sumore..cheeseballs!!
Lets carry on..
Kin
heya,long time nvr update...hope life goes on without many worries.i'm gonna b very busy soon.i finish skool late on almost evry dae of the week.den on sats have to get back to school to finish art coursework...hmmm..den dat fuckin np tchear kip chasing me...fuck him ah..evil..niwae can't wait to meet u dis sun..nak hug u mani-mani..love u sayang..oh yah i forgot!!shit ah valentines dae gotta go to skool to do art n go for trips to bras basah,arab st n sungei road...art stuff ah...hmmm..how ah?...nvrmind ah..evritym we meet oso special wat...love u alot sayang*mmmuuaacck*
<;love u;>
fuck ah cos of this stoopid rain i n kin gotta cancel plan and im stuck here in my mum office sial ah! ah i dunnoe wher we gona go now..fucken weather! cheebai la..see la now i bcum ahbeng k ah wait i update bt wat we end up doin todae..stay tuned...
rain2 go away kin n jeg wanna play..herhik!>;)
hm..wats up..sat went gig at changkat..i found it boring cos so many emo bands..the ska band nak skank pun tak semangat..but skank n mosh anyway..kin pun join happy seh she..so bes got gf to gig wif then skank together..something id oways wished for.. then buggers jump from stage i kene so many shoes to my face...and boots..hm..now iam at my mums office..herhik! woke up at 5! slept at 3! cos in awhile me n kin goin east coast..i gonna surprise her by meetin under her blk..supposed to mt at tb mrt.. hm..gonna leave soon..well life gets better and with kin around makin me so happy..we've been together for 3mths and i still feel as if its the 1st week..still feel so excited and stil love her so much..walau love u kin!!! (((BIGHUG))) k ah chao ah..
thanks to you
yest me went met kin then went to esp..walau wan u say goin east coast in the end we both at esp but nvr mt..herhik! julie told me.. hmmm me tok out my heart to kin and as usual this painful situation brought tears to my ees..i'm so lucky i have kin..she hugged me and reassured me that i still have her no matter wat..i cldnt let go of her last nite and cldnt bear to leave..dunnoe whether this at goin dat stupid emo gig or not..but fil lyk goin ah..long tym no go gig.. walau i wana jam la.............. i wake up play guitar..b4 leave homeplay reach hm play and b4 slp play..practise s hard never jam 4 wat...bluehkz~ niwae ii am a free ma..no skl nimore.. wel i asked mum to get me a security job at her company..then she say ok sumore wanna give me easy easy sites to werk at..bes ah..200bucks for 4days of werk but 12hrs ah..no life man..but at least can go practical..can add more tattoos, can go out..luxury btol! walau wanna jam la!
Come wat may..i will love u till my dying day..
arvind this is not a rebut to wat u have said but let me clear things up.. first of all it is true this thing was triggered cos of the gig.. i may have said this was family day but the truth is u guys should have at least asked me.. i ajak all of u to go sun but no one in turn ask me bt sat..how i feel wen i call everybody but not a single person ask me..fad msg me ask if wanna go but i cldnt reply so at nite and in the mrng i msg every1 but no one reply. if u guys feel i change wen i got gal then i have to question u back..i still ajak u guys out.. i still jackass..i stll go gig i still mosh and headbang leavin kin out.. i osos miss the good ol days all i wanted was everitin to remain the same..but things did change..if u all feel i change cos gt gf then u should have told me straight to the face like i oways do wen i have anitin to tel u guys. instead i have been subjected to bein treated differenrtly..if u wanna say i have not done my part in this frenship then go ahead but every1 noes how much i treasure this frenship.. i have not neglected u guys.. i have not becum tis egoistic macho guy in front of gal.. i stil the same ol silly jegan..
if u dn wanna col me out cos i oways with kin like wats up with dat?we oways wanna slak as a group and kin osos oways tel me ajak u guys. but how cuum u dn wanna col me cos i wif her..i canot choose btwn any1.. yest i went home and the first thing i did was to sit on the floor hug my dog and cry..i dunnoe wat is more hurtin..i hurts me like hell i msg wif wan i cry again..u wanna kol me sissy go ahead but thats how i feel cos u guys mean so much to me.. but its no use wen im the only one tryin make things werk.. im like draggin evry1 along with me and im jus tired.. the more i expect from u guys the more i get hurt and thats y i came to the decision of leavin everything.. if u guys wanna change things go ahead but remember it is oreadi late.. it realli hurts like hell.. if kin meant everything to me and u guys dnt then i wldnt even feel anything but it hurts so u should noe how much this meant to me..wateva u all wanna do go ahead but for now i choose not to take any initiative cos everytym i try u guys dn help me..so the ball is now i ur court..up to u guys wat u wana do with it..im too sad and dejected to do anything.. i will still be in the movement and i will still be sum1 u knew jus dat i dn want any strong relationships cos they hurt
yesterday once more?
u want the pedal back i give it to u.. i din noe that u lent it to us.. i'll give it back to u..if it will make u happier..u dunnoe wat i am goin thru.. i treat all of u like my brothers..u eddy wan fad and may. but u never realise how u all treat me.. i am sad hurt and disappointed. if u wanna say wat u have done for me or helped me then i osos can sae but i choose not to..u wana be my enemy go ahead.. i never ment to hurt or hate anyone..u guys drove me to this u go out dunnoe how to kol me..vin u noe how dat feels..u complain wen we dn kol u out..but sumtyms wen we kol u out u dn wana cum.. i dn even haf a fuckin fon to kol u yet sumtyms i kol u from public fon jus to kol u out..think bt that.. i never account for how much i help or spend or wateva i jus try to be the bes person i can to u guys yet in return i get treated like shit.. arvind i did one small mistake and it wasnt even a mistake and u dn wanna tok to me u angry..how i feel? i apologise to u publicly and personally. i don wanna lose a brudder cos u all mean so much to me yet for u guys its nothing.. eddy u treat me like a bes fren wen u feel like it and wen u got no mood u shun me out like a disease..how do i feel? seriously i feel like cryin now..my heart is..u guys are all i had in life and to be treated like dis is sucky shity to say the least.. i try to be as givin as i can to u guys but i get nothing in return..i dn expect anitin but the least basic thing is to treat me the way i treat u.. i'm sick of this life.. i mite as well kill myself than live in this ungratful world..forget it k i dn need any frens or anything.. u want all ur stuff back take em..pedal? take..u osos wanna take our 3 years of frenship back go ahead.. rip my heart out if thats wat u wnt..thats all that matters anyway doesnt it..go ahead and reminisce..but pls..at the end jus spare a thought for ur once brudder k...
thank you :_(
yup same ol story...yest went to khatib from skl wif kin then went to tb lepak then i becum giler and accidentally flick a can of drink down from the 4th floor then kanchong readi had to jump and hide! bes ah with kin, can be myself..can be a clown can be a fren can be a lover...bes!!! hm..so i've made up my mind bt not wantin any 'brudders' anymore.. its a good feelin, a burden has been lifted off my shoulders..and i talked to my cos manager earlier and we have reached an agreement that i write him a letter and he'd process it for me and i can most prob change cos so next semester i'd be a freshie again
but nememind ah at least can do wat i like..and osos i seelin my chorus pedal to this one guy for 80bucks..cheap uuh? well i dnt need it and got it free osos..the money can use to pay up my guitar and the remaining for um buying my mum this levis bag for valentines day..it costs 100! but worth ah! hm dunnoe if meetin kin todae not? haiz..now my life startin anew..gotta get a job and make new relatiionships with kin and my mum..walua me plannin to ton at sentosa on 13feb wif kin then go into valentines day together..bes! hope i'd have money to get her a gift ah...k ah thats all ah...cheers!
Don't me ask me why...Ask yourselves..
Well i've been feeling very pissed over these past few days..i feel that i'm bein treated like shit..sum ppl jus don noe how to appreciate frenship..to u frenship is jus wen u need me? wen u got good mood u kol me out,joke with me but wen u no mood, u push me aside no matter how hard i try..i joke u cring! i'm sick of this kinda attitude..wen i'm alone u treat e like ur best fren wen i'm with kin u treat me like an enemy..fuck it! wen u had a gal u left us all..wen she left u, u literally cried on my shoulders and my hug comforted u..now i have a gal and i din even leave u guys..i'm constantly callin u guys out..still got the cheek to say we neglect the group cos of galfren..but no! wen i kol u out mus see ur mood..no matter how tired i am no matter how sad i am i will still meet u guys if u need me but does frenship matter? no..i'm sad dissappointed and depressed to say the least..my only comfort is kin..and wan..he stood by my wen i was in sec3 and hes still here with me..fuck frenship..the only true frens i have is wan and kin..the rest can go to hell..i will not ask anyone out anymore..i'm goin into solitude..nak ajak me kluar ajak, tanak takpe but dnt count on me to ever ask u out again..jammin go ahead and plan.session go ahead and plan..from now i am no ones fren..i'm jus a skoolmate,ex skoolmate,band member,old fren,but stab me in the heart if i were to regard anyone else as my fren or brudder..it will hurt less that way..jus stab me in the heart..
Friends look out for me like family? Yeah rite!
wa! me now at skool with kin and we update togethergether...then i dunnoe wat to write readi..................later maybe goin play ball with eddy but not sure..yest we went for audition at carudi studio and i dunnoe if we played well ah..played the usual stuff and sum new covers and originals..then wennt back after lepak at sum ship dock..well so sum farkin idiots taggin my board but no guts or balls to sae hu they are..Fuck you.. im not bothered to even care anymore go ahead and say wat u want...no life! i will stand by wat i sae and i don give a shit if u posers don agree with em...hm...go ahead ah and support 'pop-punk' bands that play emo..like fuckin idiot u dont realise that they're called poppunk cos they're mainstream..anitin can be called pop as long as its mainstream..but the fact is they play emo..u stoopid bastards!! and dont fuckin diss without basisu stopid lame excuse for a human! bitch!
Got th e guts to diss...have the guts to own up
Hey wat the fuck is all this talk about punkrock..its jus fucken music and nothing more..please visit the site bout original punkrockers..they're a band hu play emo and have never been seen on the local scene and are not recognised..they r jus 15yr old kids calling themselves original punkrockers..watsup with dat? like cum on..u guys are playin emo and u guys are influenced by emo..calling urselves original punkrockers? hu the fuck gave u dat rite? they're individual profiles spell alternative,ska-punk,punkrock and rudeboy as lifestyles....watsup with dat? those are not lifestyles!! those are genress of music except 4 the rude boy part and that osos is oni a concept inspired by ska music... farken kids dunnoe wat ur talkin bout...pissing me off!>:( grow up and look into the real world! u fucken pissed me off...i hate u!
Wake up Wake up! to the world around you!
Man i feel so good...my ****** cum ready...no more worry-den jus find out i jus haf 2 do papercut for ARt..almost thinkin of dropping that subject...But still,im quite far behind..gotta start spending more tym on R&D readi...Jeg!!!i love u so damn much!!Can't wait to c ur cute little buddy...i tot of callin him grecko...dunoe wad reason oso;pi oso duno wad grecko means..should b sumthing to do wif crazy ah...u noe lyk..walau,grecko sak u...k im tokin shit...Love u jeg!cant wait to meet u again!wanna hug u n squeeze u reeel tite!!!-TM bros...hope u guys would have a good day ahead of u...u guys are one of the best group of people i noe;)LOVE U JEG!!!
Jeg
wahai!!! so now we sharin our blog..its me and kin so u guys gotta try differentiate us k..so wats happening? hm...dat dae we jam and we covered got the numbers and seriously is was so damn fun to play..wa bes..fad improved alot..dunoe if its improvement or wat he had inside him ah but wateva it was it was damn farkin good...well so im happy..yest went town with vin and eddy then me n kin ended up at fort canning lepak then went back to see my new puppy...walau so damn cute..u guys should come over and see him sum dae k.. think i can get him home by sat..sape nak lepak bp on sun? everyone invited....jus cum on down k..today no plans yet maybe meetin fad may semua at bb..k so i jus comfem meetin em so gotta go...go go go...!!! wa love u kin! love u bros!!! wan eddy arvind fad may hanafe! u my brudders!!!
datang jauh jauh makan mac!
Hi sweetheart!!!THanks for letting me share ur blog...Love u so damn much...Damn this year gonna b stressful!...but nvrmind,coz there's antiflag n mypy to help me relaxed-oh ya!im so happy for TM brothers...Happy family again...awwww...so sweet;)-Niwae...Arvind,sorry for wadeva dat has happen k-Wan,hope evriting is fine...-Jeg!!!i love u so damn much!!!Ur evriting i eva wanted...Hope our love last 4eva...nant jangan lupe mintak eddy lyrics n tabs k...so...ya la...peace...Love u so much sayang!!
hey anyone out there listen punkrock? anyone call ourselves punkrockers? anyone hu call urselves punkrockers rite can u please cum n tel me wat is a punkrocker... i listen to punkrock and i play punkrock so am i a punkrocker? huh? wat the fuck? punkrock is music and thats about it..no fashion no culture no lifestyle...jus plain fuckin music.. bastards...and did u realise that those hu call themselves punkrockers are the ones hu play emo..like fuck bands such as new found glory,mest,ataris,simple plan,bowling for soup and all the other emo bands..like fuck la ur jus playin boy band stuff with electric guitars..posers! so if u wanna say u play punkrock then u better not play those shit cos unless ur playin punkrock as it is supposed to be played ur not playin shit.. bad religion,pennywise,anti-flag,nofx play real punkrock..even sellout bands play real punkrock..bands such as sum41..box car racer may be seen as emo but they do tackle real issues as well so do good charlotte..so dn jus call punkrock underground bands..so wat if they sell out..they still play real stuff..respect em u posers...stupid punkrockers! eMorockers!!
I hate "punkrockers" who play emo!
Walau dunoe wat to write osos..hmm..yest i cycled to woodlands via the farkin old woodlands road along kranji...pukiwak! super dangerous and scary ah like scary monster...bueh!!!! hm..then met eddy n vin lepak2 then cycle back..then todae ososo never go class.me rilek oni..fuck ah my specs lost then if i go class osos cannot see nuts.. hm..then nite msg with kinokuniang! my dearest..walua love u so much..so we plannin to share blog ah n i told her to add an entry todae but i guess she lazy ah...monkeygal! hmm..later meetin avin eddy and kin at town i goin with fad i gues...k la thats it..anyone wanna contact me jus msg k i cant reply but at lest can receive...wuahahahahahaha!!!!!!!farkin@@#$%^!!!! Muacks X3
thats simply my life story!
hogay..dis is an public apology to arvind about a misunderstanding we had...let me flashback...@@@@@ new years day...---------> i n kin supposed to ton at marina south park..supposed to spend our new year together ah..kin was at town wif the guys n i was at my granpa's b'day get together..supposed to meet her after that and go ah..then she msg me say wanna join vin at east coast.. i say anitin ah cos got a group goin then if we go off alone osos nememind rite...then vin's plan cancelled so kin ajak him go wif us ah..then she never think dat if vin cum wif us he sure bored if we couple2 then sumore at park..so i said nvm ah we jus go 2ppl..then found out eddy cumin down so i tot we can all go together2 ah...but then i guess i had pissed arvind off readi ah..som i guess it is my fault..but i hope arvind understands my situation ah cos i really din wanna leave u out jus tot wait u feel bored..if i make u angry or hurt i'm sorry ah..but i never meant to...so i hope u forgive me ah..msg me k..we good friend for so long readi sak i don think our friendship should be wasted cos of a misunderstanding ah...so arvind..hope u understand..
Pennywise-BRO HYMN
wa.................!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy...yest we all met up,me wan fad eddy n may..we talked things out and i'm so happy that fad opened up and we resolved everything..in the past he had trouble opening up due to his past experiences n background but now hes a different person altogether and yest we all got to see a different side of him... i noe many ppl hu talk behind his back and i realise their reason for doin so but by talkin behind sum1's back ur not doin any good...like us we talk things out and fad has realised the problem and we can all werk it out..so all the peeplers who talk behind anyones back...FUCK YOU! talk it out and u can resolve things..now i can finally move on with life withoput any baggage or stress on me... its seriously a farkin good feeling..then me and kin as happy as ever so i got no complains...wa.....!!! bes!!!
i love u guys ah!! all of you...Wan, Eddy, Fad, May...Kin!! love u all!!!
And they lived happily ever after
walu me damn lazy sak! past 2 days neber go skl..todae osos neber go i jus cum 4 c++ programmin.. later meetin kin go watch her fren perform at outram.. dunoe wat band the nope..never heard of osos..but anyway teman her ah at least get to meet her..... hm..me damn lazy ah these days..lazy muthafarker ah.. now osos damn lazy to do any werk..jus typin then write abit then go back to bloggin...this course sucks..niwae stuck here for another 3 hrs b4 i can rush off to meet my dearest kin!!! tmro goin queensway wif mum buy sum stuff then most prob meet kin... we gotta jam!!! got audition next week sumore our new songs da session onli hvnt jam...hopefully fad can improve and play 16beat ah...we really need that in our songs cos if not all our songs gonna sound the same and we gona be boring..we have all progressed as a band and eddy has improved so much on his timing and wan so good on leads now.. me now can play palmute macam2 and all the other stuff required of me that i couldnt do a few months ago..fad seems like he don wanna try osos but dat dae we all made him agree to try..cum on ah we gotta improve and progress as a band not jus individuals..come on fad i noe u can become a good drummer.. niwae well notin else to sae..so go go go ah!!!! see ya guys around!! ~~~~~~~~~ =p
belum cube belum tahu
ah! fuck! i think i cocked sumtin up with my archive! wat a dumbass... write so much readi..ah!!! let me summarise...KIN i miss u!!!! everything else is good... k gotta go
attack of the dumbasses
anger
beginnings
Off my chest
prank call
insomniacs block
friending
A New Chapter Begins
everything
I love it
A Tribute..
sex ,shopping and diwali
sex ,shopping and diwali
So tired
Amazed
Three single nights
Three single nights
Three single nights
Three single nights
Three single nights
CHOCOLATE PANTIES!!!
Love...Money
how long will nothing suffice?
Sensitive prick
Another drunken nite
Wouldn't it be nice
Im So In Love
chickies pockies
Thank u PR
mums the word
My fuckin sister is an asshole
Our Song
Its just you n me..
GBB
New Found Glory.. Same old story
its been so long
shit emo
shit emo
hi
duty balls
happy holidays
kekiri pusing!!!
book out lor
punk wedding
Gues who's back? back again....
scary scary hippo
pEepyCmf
this is wat i have to say today
return of the moron
Not busy
????????????
Dear diary...
Move to bukit panjang
Home sweet home
Happy Valentines Day
Spermicide
Good doggies!!!
Sin or Favour?
Nothing to do blog la!
my brain missing
I've made up my mind
wello!!!
Damn!!
Life goes on..
U happy i happy...
Lost
Whatever
Same ol story
FUCK FRIENDSHIP
Together-gether
FUCKEN PISSED OFF
yey!!Rilek!!
Wipee Junior Juice
haluuu!!!!
Punkrock? Emorock..
Wuariginal!
I'm sorry vin
Once upon a time
lazy c.m.f!!!
Dumbass
.:.C.M.F.:.
aDD Me aT MSn OR FRIeNDSTER
peepycmf@hotmail.com
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I SAY IT AS IT IS... AND I SAY IT AS IDIOTIC AS I CAN